While I was in n a the kitchen cleaning up I noticed it was much quieter than usual. I knew Cooper was reading on the couch but I wasn't sure what Molly was up to and I got nervous. She has already made her fair share of chaos today. I wasn't looking forward to any more. But when I walked in to see this sight my heart skipped a beat. And I couldn't help but feel excitement for our upcoming adventures in homeschooling.
I have been having some stress lately about whether or not I am going to be able to give Cooper what he needs for a good education. Not only do I worry about how well it will work out to have Cooper doing his work while his crazy little sister is running around the house I also worry about me and what I am capable of. I am not a teacher. I didn't do well in math. And I am not the most organized person. I have been trying to work on theses weaknesses since homeschooling became a definite but haven't felt like I am enough. I knew I was led to this decision by spiritual inspiration. I know it is what Cooper needs. But even with the knowledge of those things I still couldn't shake the doubt. So I did what I needed to do. I prayed. I said a prayer to know that I could be enough. And I asked for inspiration to know how Cooper needed to be taught. That afternoon I was reading my scriptures and these verses stood out and told me what I needed to know...
2 Now I, Nephi, did not work the timbers after the manner which was learned by men, neither did I build the ship after the manner of men; but I did build it after the manner which the Lord had shown unto me; wherefore, it was not after the manner of men.
3 And I, Nephi, did go into the mount oft, and I did prayoft unto the Lord; wherefore the Lord showed unto megreat things.
The Lord has not asked me to build a ship but he ha asked me to build my son's future. And just like He told Nephi not to build his ship "after the manner which was learned by men", He has asked me to teach Cooper in a non traditional way. And just like Nephi I must pray oft to know what things The Lord would have me know and do. I am not alone in this. After receiving this inspiration I do not feel so stressed. I know that as long as I stay close to my Heavenly Father, have faith, and pray oft that our Heavenly Father will help us in our homeschooling journey.
